I've lost many people through out my life, I know how shitty feeling it is, especially when he was close to you or a loved one.
That wasn't your true personality, what got you into trouble in-game. Real life comes before a virtual world.
Stay positive,strong, don't give up, always remember those who didn't make it. He will go on with you for the rest of the life, even tho he ain't with you.
We all got your back brother, we will support you , even tho we haven't met you. Cheer up, sometimes life shoves shit at you, that's how it is. You must stay strong!
May the guy rest in peace and have a wonderful afterlife.